I am sooooooo over-the-moon excited... beyond excited... I was practically jumping up and down at school for most of the day today (or I was on the inside anyway)! :) :) :)
Ok, so let me back track and fill in some of the blanks and tell about my past week.
If you read my last post, being on Clomid last week was quite a trip. Day 2 of really having it in my system was near awful. I was so excited to be done with it, and finished it up on Sunday night~ Wahoo!! Hit the road, sucker! Buh-bye 'til next time, Clomid! ;)
This past week was pretty uneventful, on the fertility front anyway. I had to patiently wait til today for monitoring... but I was pretty anxious ALL week long. Then, finally, Thursday night arrived!! I got my trigger shot out of the fridge (a shot that I would have to inject into my stomach at some point before the IUI procedure to help release the egg follicle? Idk what it does 100% really, but it's super important and it had to stay refrigerated.... and I had to bring it with me to the clinic this morning in case it was to be given then). So I prepped that in a lunch bag cooler last night, threw it in fridge, and anxiety instantly set in. I was so nervous/anxious/excited that I felt like I was gonna throw up. I can't believe it's almost here!!
I was freaking out all week with all kinds of crazy paranoid questions and "What If..." scenarios. I rarely come up with questions for Drs.... but I'm pretty sure I'm setting a new record for the "crazy/neurotic/paranoid/annoying patient" at the clinic. All kinds of crazy things have popped into my head that I'll email our patient coordinator. Yikes I feel weird but they've been good about it! LOL... This week my fear was that I would ovulate before my monitoring appt today. Then we'd miss the chance and lose a month. They said it can happen but usually is timed really well. I was so afraid I would be that one person who went early (when I NEVER go early... usually am late), but I feared it. Clomid and acupuncture would probably set it early. So the only way to really calm myself (aside from peeing on a stick for ovulation predictors), I took my temp each morning this week to see where I was at. Each day it was like clearing a new hurdle.
Luckily it stayed level all week, even this morning. PHEW!!
Up at 5am again, I was ready to leave at 6 and off to the clinic. I got there just before 7 and was #4 in line (10 had showed up by the time I was called in... busy day!). I was quickly called in for blood work (becoming a pro now!) and then went in for my ultrasound/follicle scan. While in there, I smiled and laughed because the machines are apparently named and this one was Belle, from Beauty and the Beast... c'mon, for the Disney nut in me, how appropriate is that?! ;) I asked if they're all Disney princesses and they said yes, the others are Ariel and Jasmine. Awesome. I'll take that as a cool sign!
YAYYYY!!!!! :) :)
I was all smiles and super excited to pass the next test/round. The nurse said I would do the trigger shot at home tonight, between 7 and 9 pm, and showed me how to do it. I even asked her to mark the spot for me because I would likely forget or freak about it, so she drew a circle in pen to the left of my belly button. Talk about no guessing... self injection for dummies. ;) She assured me I would do fine and it would be quick and easy... it's a tiny needle, it's all pre-measured, and I would be fine. I was already mentally pumping myself up to do it myself.
Then I was off to school/work and luckily showed up only 5 mins late, and SUPER excited. Literally everyone I passed in the hall could tell I was on a happiness high and had good news. I've been so open with anyone and everyone at work and they all know our history and what's happening. So now it was written all over my face as I was bouncing through the hallways and filling in my best friends at work all through the day. :) Fun stuff!!
During morning recess, one of my little sweet pea kindergarteners made me a card. After recess, she walked to her seat and casually tossed it on my desk, smiled, and kept walking. It said "To Mrs Ricci.... From Victoria" and this was the pic...
Now here comes the really cool twist of fate... or so I believe.
Fast forward to the afternoon. The kids are having snack and I'm talking with our classroom aide. I'm walking around the room handing out snacks, talking to the kids and to the aide, and then come over to sit at my desk with my aide. I don't normally have her in the room in the afternoon (2 random times a week for afternoons) and I usually keep my phone behind my desk with my things. But today, I had her and my phone happened to be on my desk because I had just been on it during my break the previous class period. The MOMENT I sat down, my phone rang (it's on silent so I wouldn't have heard/seen it if was in the usual spot) and it was the clinic. I answered immediately without hesitation (not typical for me, being in class) and it was the nurse from this morning with an update...
Nurse: I just got your blood test results and it shows you're starting to ovulate on your own!
Me: Ahhhh!! OMG! What does that mean? Do we miss it? Will we miss it? (excited/panicked) Ahhh!! (LOL)
Nurse: You should come in tomorrow for the IUI instead of Sunday... and you need to go do your trigger shot NOW.
Me: Omg Omg Omg... Ok. Done! OMG. Yay!! Thank you!
Ok, so now excitement sets in even more! It's all a blur but I gathered my aide knew what was happening from the phone call, and as I was trying to explain it all, she was just like "Go, Go!! I've got it... go!" She stayed with the class and I ran down to the nurse's office. We were both super excited and it was just happening so fast.
My meds were packed safely in a lunch cooler, tucked in the fridge in the nurse's office (just something I happened to do in the morning because a few parents and kids were near the teacher fridge when I arrived and I wanted to hide it). So luckily the nurse already knew what it was and it saved me explaining time. I ran down to her office, and called Scott on the way to tell him the day and time was changed and that I had to trigger now!! I get to the nurse, explain quickly about the new game changer and ask if she can help... No scratch that, I think I begged. I could have done it, but having her there made it so much easier. I've known her for most of my life so I'm totally comfortable with her. We both were excited and I didn't even have time to think about what was about to happen. We were mumbling different things to each other and just excited and adrenaline kicked in. Here's some of what I remember:
Simply put... She is INCREDIBLE and it's clear why I love her and why she's one of my favorite people Ever. Immediately I knew what to do and what to say to others. She didn't even know I was internally struggling with this. So I started to plant the seed in everyone's mind and send that message yesterday. I felt perfectly at ease with it and I ask that everyone respectfully not ask us how it's going or ask for updates, unless it's been like 6-8 months with no announcement. Everyone knows the timing so I'm sure people will pick up on symptoms or clues I can't help, but that's it. (Keep in mind tho, I pee a million times a day anyway, not pregnant... So that will def not be a sign to watch for. Haha!) We'll tell our inner circle early on and that's it. The rest we will wait for the safe zone of 12/13 weeks after the first trimester. I'll blog about other things or Ttc things but nothing super specific until the time is right. Hopefully that is sooner than later but we will see. It's mostly out of our hands, so I have to give it to God and those loved ones up above who I know are looking down on us, smiling and helping however they can. So here on out, I would appreciate prayers, positive thoughts, texts, support, and all that happy positive jazz, just no questions.
You said it, sister! Cinderelly is a smart cookie! <3
LOL!!! Scott saw it first and as I was getting ready, I just hear him start cracking up hysterical. He kept saying "oh my god" and laughing. Now I know why, and she granted permission to use these (thank you!!) bc they are just too precious!! Haha!! It cracks me up every time!